oh melodie, it was such a healing experience then and now. i needed it- believe me. when it happened it completely eased so much anxiety i had for so long (which we discussed at the time). it was important in my empathizing with other abuse victims i come across so often. it was such an important experience for me. im happy to still be learning & healing from it. you are all good and i believe and trust you - no regrets. sorry - yes it is a lot of intense information to give you especially after so long.